>MeMoRies GoOd Or BaD....ArE sTiLl MeMoRiEs<

2009-12-31T23:51:00.000-08:00

to you, im glad i met you and think its kinda crazy how we barge into each other's crazy life. cause of who you are, made me reflect on who i am and who i wanna become. it made me become more self aware and you have influenced me to spare a thought for those around. that money and labels is not all that is in the world. unknowingly, you created a big impact in my life and while i maybe still the insecure, self centered person inside, im now clearer in whats important in life. so thx!

2009-12-31T23:44:00.000-08:00

new year resolution for 2010:

i guess the most important thing is to get a headstart in my career. i know what i want, and i need to work towards it. nothing comes easy, i really need to be serious in my work. its the crunch time. 10 years from now, i dont want to regret my actions i do. gotta step on it

being a nicer friend. being alone reminds me of how important friends are in my life. i have been too selfabsorbed in my own world that i often forgot about others. think for others for a change.

i think i have serious security issues. thus, all the need of burberry and lvs and branded stuff to be noticed. nobody cares if im using an lv or tag, whats important is who i am inside. thus i seriously need to get over my insecurities and start being a better more confident person, without the labels. its just a label. it dosen dictate who i am as a person.

2009-12-31T23:39:00.000-08:00

this is probably the worst new year i had. cold, tired, crowded and alone. everything seems to be overrated. nye in nyc is suppose to be happening and yet, i spend it alone and worn out. it all goes back to an ice berg theory, where things may not be what it seems. there are more important things to chase on other than materials of the world, cause everything is nothing if you're alone.

2009-11-15T23:54:00.001-08:00

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop
Oh baby, tell me why’d you have to go
‘Cause this pain I feel it won’t go away
And today I’m officially missin’ you

I though that from this heartache, I could escape
But I’ve had it long enough to know
There ain’t no way
And today I’m officially missing you

Chorus:
Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I’m officially

All I do is lay around, two years full of tears
From looking at your face all over
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don’t even know you at all,
I don’t know you at all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it’s safe to say, baby
Safe to say that I’m officially missin’ you

Chorus:
Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I’m officially

Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see there’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way to let go of you

Chorus:
Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I’m officially

It’s official
Hoo, you know that I’m missin’ you, yeah, yes
All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah
And I’m officially missin’ you

2009-11-14T18:41:00.000-08:00

Submitted some internship application today. Not sure how i should feel now too. Have been disappointed too many times to keep my hopes high. While i really hope that i can secure a good internship with a top bank, i cant help but wonder, what are my chances? there are so many better qualified students around. Students graduating from ivy league colleges around the world, students who obtained scholarships and excellent academic record. And after that, low self-esteem strut. the cruel reality of life that i am only a freaking small fish in this global pond.

But hey, I'm Jared! I wont let the reality of life hold me down. My determination will power me through. just have to put in more hours of effort and less on dota!

2009-11-11T01:38:00.000-08:00

maybe its karma, but i guess i realize how it feels to be on the opposite side of the fence. but still, time heals more wound and i just need to get over this. i just need to think rationally

2009-11-09T22:06:00.000-08:00

life goes by pretty fast. if you dun stop to look around once in awhile, you could miss it. so i'm gonna let everything all go, and be myself once again.

2009-11-09T00:15:00.000-08:00

7th annual black friday was awesome. The atmosphere was really spectacular and the crowd is simply cool. and the best part, i snatched a black friday tee!!! we won Yale 5-2 though Yale seems to be playing better. the cheers was really 'in your face' gangsta rpi students. LOL. but the school spirit is just awesome, it would had made anyone feel apart of the school whether or not you are an exchange student. imagine if rpi would have made it all the way to the finals, the school atmosphere will truly be one of a kind. they are so proud of their school, a culture which is so different where i came from. springfield -> tpjc -> ntu; its no wonder i have no school spirit in me.

2009-11-05T07:10:00.000-08:00

people never appreciates until its lost. Being out here in the USA, i've realized how important you are to me. ever night, i wish you're night next to me, smiling at me while i sleep. i thought that coming here, i'd have more space to breath, but everyday, its getting harder and harder. they say distance make the heart grow founder. being half the globe away, i cant be any further and my heart cant be missing you more. i miss you so much.

2006-09-29T01:24:00.000-07:00

Finally my time has come. The taste of having freedom again just feel so damn good. No more waking up before the sun rise, no more runs, no more SOC, no more SAR21, no more outfield, no more camo cream, no more walking, no more missions, no more digging of trenches, no more officers who are a pain in the ass(there are some good ones though) and no more stay-in!!!!

But honestly, as i lock my office door for the last time, i just cant help but feel something for my battalion. There are alot of hard times, in fact, there is only hard times! haha. but it is through the hard times that sometimes reveal who we really are. and till date, i am quite please with what i've done. i am not perfect, i could have done alot more but i still think i did pretty well. My boss even said he havent seen such a responsible IC in a very long time. and though i am the newest guy in my plt(i only enter my battalion for less than a year as compared to 1.5 for the rest), my boss all trust me more than anyone else. esp when i was 'forced' to be 2IC for my platoon.

I cant say that i enjoy time in 3SIR. in fact, i hate it. all the nonsense that they do, all the extra stuff we have to do, and all the weekends i have to be in camp just to serve the duties. most of the time it drives me nuts. but at the end of the day, i survived being in an active unit. all the missions, the operations, the training, the UO demo and the most xiong event; ATEC!

Thinking back, my NS life have been quite good. i love my BMT( Scorpion rocks!!), SISPEC was damn fun, 3SIR was tough but fulfilling. the best part of NS is probably the friends that i've made through all the courses i went to. esp SISPEC. really glad my section still remain as friends and when we're free, we call and email each other to keep in touch. this is probably the best part of NS

Now that i going to ORD, its not really the end but the beginning of serving NS. the future to me is still a big question mark to me. what will i be doing, will i go outfield again, or will i just stay in office and slack is still very unknown. but whatever it is, i think it wont be that bad. really like to thank the people who been through NS with me. every single friend i made in NS, and my friends outside NS who are always cheering me on (you know who you are). every encouragement made me go a longer mile then i would have. so thanks ;p

P.S. ENJOY YOUR 2YEARS RECRUITS!!!!

2006-08-05T22:21:00.000-07:00

Stuff that are on the rise

Bus fare
ERP rates
Petrol cost

Those that are not?

The money in my back account
My height
My sex appeal

How to survive!!!

2006-07-30T22:04:00.000-07:00

Went to watch The Lake House over this weekend. Honestly, don't really like the movie. Its long, draggy and ultimately DUHZ!!!! And can you believe i actually watch the movie twice this weekend!!! but the second time was a treat from that fat creature (or rather 2 fat creatures) so take it that i went for free air con and a very comfortable chair. i'm not gonna write spoilers but i do have some questions for people who already watched it.

1. i understand how the past can change the future, but how can future change the past. If i put a note a box, how can i travel 2 years back in time. it can stay for two years but its not a two way thing. if i open a mailbox in 2006, i don't really think it'll open in 2004 like shown in the movie. its not logical

2. How can a tree suddenly appear out of nowhere. if it was planted in 2004, it'd already be there in 2006, and not magically apear while Sandra Bullock was running home. If you say its cause he planted it at exectly the same time but just 2 years ago, why is it that she remember dancing and kissing the 'random' guy even though Keanu havent had that dance with her(in Keanu point of view). Why that inconsistancy?

3. How can she magically change the future just like that. in the last part, she knowing he is dead, wrote a note for him to wait another two years cause she know he is gonna die that day. He read it and avoided the accident and then magically shows up next to Sandra Bullock. So does that mean everyone's memory of keanu dying in 2006 was magically erased or did she magically went into another timezone.

Alternatively, you can ignore all these discrapencies and enjoy the show and not ask so many questions. I'm obviously not that romantic type and dun really like that kind of fantasy.

P.S: If someone write to me from the future, the 1st thing i'll ask is what 4D will be out or which shares will rise or who'll win the world cup and not ask her to take a stupid walk with me. And if i see a mailbox opening like that, i'd head for the hills! Its the seventh month for crying out loud!!!!!

2006-07-14T00:40:00.000-07:00

X-NS MEN

_{Freaking funy, go check it out! This may be a pun on the SAF, but to some extent, its freaking true! haha. bth, love this clip

Keng right~~~}

2006-07-14T00:26:00.000-07:00

Busy month, thats all i can say. its events after events, one after another. First ATEC, then SAF Day, then now going outfield every single day for a Urban Ops demo for the ministers(which is suppose to show the whole of Singapore how much the SAF have grown in term of manipulating the best of technology into mordern day wars, then after that, its the Internal Quality Check by HQ Medical Corps (which is on 24th Aug, 1 day after my bday! damn!!) then after that its time for the new 3SIR mono to come in and its another mad rush all over again. On top of that, there is still stupid weekend duties every single weekend which is driving me insane! life sucks like this man. im under paid and overworked!! cant wait to ord. Like seriously, this may be the only two years in my life where i have mininal stress, but its maximum work. But hey, just a few more months and im out of this. Till then, all i can say is LIFE SUCKS!!!

2006-05-20T10:15:00.000-07:00

Thanks to the prankers (funny ah) writing nonsense on my tag board, i need to clear this straight

Trust me, I love myself & bur

so go figure out yourself

2006-05-13T02:38:00.000-07:00

Was in camp doing duty on friday night when a sudden call came in; from my best buddy John Joash Goh Yewluck. had a nice chat with him (who am i kidding! everytime i talk to him i'l be mailto:%^#@#$%#@ all the way). He told me about his blog and i went to check it out. while reading, cant help but be reminded about the times i had with my 'best buddy'.

Met him at the most unexpected event; HM4 (church camp), where i was this loner and he was the only person willing to talk to me. haha. make me sound so loser. after the camp, kinda surprised that we still keep in contact but that lead to an extraordinary friendship. we would meet before service, hang around after service. then slowly, met up to 'study' during the weekdays, met up when any one of us had problems and needed someone to talk to. then went over to each other's house to tock cork whole night. we were almost inseparable. still remember we met each other every single day during the march holiday eith elsa and his best friend lavinia. on the last sunday we were so broke from spending money that we had to share our dinner. THAT PHATETIC!!! know it sounds dame gay here but hey, kinda glad to such a friend. same frequency and always driving each other crazy (more like he drive me crazy most of the time). love ya buddy. YUCKS!!!

thoughout my life, i had lots of buddies, friends, brothers. but its never easy to find one like Joash. even though we havent met in like decades, me pang sei him like a thousand times, and us not talking for so long, i guess deep down, we'll always acknowledge each other as best buddies!! always thought when girls go around screaming 'BEST friend!! Best friend' is dame cliche, but i guess maybe, we should give these 'best friends' a chance

2006-05-07T07:07:00.000-07:00

Number of personnal stuff stolen in 3SIR!!

Gortex Jacket : $200+

Field pack : $30+

Running Shoes : $50+

Water bag :$40+

my water bottle stolen during ATEC : my life!!

still having a hang over from ATEC. 3 days 3 nights without sleep and food and walked for like forever!! without water somemore!!! cannot take it

2006-04-30T04:17:00.000-07:00

Booking in in an hours time. haiz, change the whole meaning of labour day man. sad case!!! mission on labour day just isnt a very encouraging idea. but what to do, im in the army, where everything is screwed up!

ok, have to go le! pray hard for me that no wild boars would attk me, that the weather would nt kill me, and that i would nt kill myself in the middle of the mission! take care guys!!! enjoy the music

2006-04-23T04:51:00.000-07:00

Wanted to go for my run last morning and Bur just gave me that 'bring me along' look. after some contemplation i just brought him along. well, he is a dog and can run right? WRONG!!!

took a jog to Bedok reserviour which is about 2.5k away from my house while Bur is running beside me. but by the time we reached the reserviour for our actual 5k run, he is exhausted le!! can already hear him panting. but no turning back le so i kinda forced him to run. such a rare sight to keep 'encouraging' a dog to jia you!! and so pai sey la!! pengz. and he just keep lagging behind. really bth him lorz. and i keep have to pull him along. then half way through, he gave up and just lie on the middle of the track and refuse to move!!!!! pengz!!! i have to carry him to the side to rest la!! after afew mins of resting, i pull him along. but that stupid dog ignored me!!! ultimate laziness!! still i pulled him on and he 'lan lan' must walk. and everytime he see a bench nearby, he would move towards it and rest under the shade of the bench!!! pengz!! there i was wearing saf 3sir singlet and a dog who is dying of heart attack. in the end, i just carried him all the way home.

Moral of the story; never bring a dog(esp mine) to a long distance jog

2005-06-11T13:21:00.000-07:00

Mt IPPT Results

Chin-ups : 16 (5 points)

Sit-ups : 48 (5points)

SBJ : 250 (5 points)

Shattle Run : 9.56s (5 points)

2.4k : 9.45 (5 points)

Total Points : 25/25

Results : Silver

WHY ? Cause i miss the gold requirement of 9.44s and below for 2.4km run by 1 freakin sec!!!!!!!

2005-05-14T13:33:00.000-07:00

Where NTU & NUS replied

After weeks of anticipation, weeks of countless letdowns, weeks of hearing happy people celebrating their time away as they got into uni, weeks of me just standing in front of my mail box with my legs shivering, hands clutch in prayer that NTU & NUS would want me, it finally came!!!!!!!!!!! well, got into my last choice of NUS (Arts and Social Science) and first choice of NTU (Bioengineering). its dame ironic. while my friend could not get in bioengin with a triple A in NUS, i got into NTU bioengin with a ACC and no need to kneel down for 10weeks infront of their engin admin office to beg for a space there!!!! is it pure luck? or does NTU bioengin really suck...or did i sleep with the prof for a space there...i donno...kinda sad that i couldnt get into NUS engin, but i guess i only have myself to blame...nvm...already found 2 buddies going throught he same course...we're gonna have fun man!!!!!

but thinking back, is bioengin really the right thing for me? the interest i definitely there, but with any, i repeat ANY bio background (not even at O level), how am i gonna tackle the course...i'll probably graduate last in class or something!!!! NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

2005-05-01T23:57:00.000-07:00

A Cock and Bull story

One day, a cock was flying south to avoid the cold winter. on the way there, he hoo-landed (lost his way) and ended up at the south pole. when he was there, he felt very cold and started crying out. Then, a bull walked pass and saw the cock. looking at the cock, he decided to help the cock. thus, he shit on the cock. the cock being soaked in shit felt so much better. there he was enjoying the warmth of the shit and singing in joy. then a cat walked pass and saw the cock in the pile of shit. he then took the cock out of the shit and cleared him of all the shit. then the cat ate him up.

Moral of the story:

not all who put u in deep shit are bad people and not all peole who get u out of them are good. and when u're in deep shit, keep your mouth shut!

2005-04-24T23:20:00.000-07:00

Its been like probably half a year since i blogged...with 6days out of 7 dedicatedt to army and the last day to rest...where got time to blog! by the time i'm out...already shack like crazy...haha...but honestly...ns is really a different experience... especially the BMT period...of course there are times where its tiring...times where i get to taste my own sweat...times where i miss bur at home...times where it gets stressful...times where i dun get to shower for a whole week...times where it gets sianz...times where i get so tired that i run looking down and my tongue sticking out...and most times where i wake up and ask myself what am i doing in miserable tekong...and everyday climbing 5 plights of stairs to get to bung...but amids all these...BMT mates really made it so much easier...till the extend where times in camp are much more fun than times outside camp itself...the 3months in BMT are really one of a kind and once in a lifetime...nothing i've been through come close to this...and hey...with free food, free accomodation, free physical training, great friends to be with and we're paid somemore...what more can we ask for! haha...the 10weeks with section 4 is truely a period i'll never forget...the days in scorpion makes my BMT really special...really have to experience it to believe it...many companies may hate scorpion cause of the welfare we have...but trust me...i'm dame proud to be in scorpion...and btw...we are not slack ok! now that when im in SISPEC and everyone is moving on with their own paths...things are just so different...but the scorpion platoon 4 section 4 spirit lives on! love you guys dudes

2005-04-24T16:10:00.000-07:00

View from the top!

2005-04-24T16:09:00.000-07:00

Our playground

2005-04-24T16:08:00.000-07:00

A close-ups on the yandaos

2005-04-24T16:07:00.000-07:00

Dun ask me...i have no idea what we're doing

2005-04-24T16:06:00.000-07:00

This felle is the Company's best...more like the Company's bitch

2005-04-24T16:05:00.000-07:00

He's the prostitute!

2005-04-24T16:04:00.000-07:00

Fooling around with our M16s

2005-04-24T16:03:00.000-07:00

A RARE afternoon rest!

2005-04-24T16:02:00.000-07:00

The things we do in bung...

2005-04-24T16:01:00.000-07:00

This is how an army photo should look like man!

2005-04-24T16:00:00.000-07:00

Moments before our passing out parade...*spot our 2IC on the right*

2005-04-24T15:59:00.000-07:00

A final picture with my buddy! 3 months of BMT and it ends with this...SCORPION WUUHAAA

2005-01-07T01:27:00.000-08:00

A Tribute to Maple...

the cutest picture I've taken!!

2005-01-07T01:26:00.000-08:00

Smile everyone!

2005-01-07T01:24:00.000-08:00

acting xiong during PQ! man i miss those days

2005-01-07T01:23:00.000-08:00

peeping at Windixen non-existance skirt

2005-01-07T01:22:00.000-08:00

how stupid looking can we get...esp with a idiot looking lazy noob mage

2005-01-07T01:21:00.000-08:00

Windixen the laughing rainbull??

2005-01-07T01:20:00.000-08:00

me and my christmas tree...

2005-01-07T01:19:00.000-08:00

me and my christmas tree and spoilt by windixen!

2005-01-07T01:15:00.000-08:00

i never had a dream come true...till the time i met 3 'hot' bikini girls in florina beach

2005-01-07T01:14:00.000-08:00

died! sad

2005-01-07T01:12:00.000-08:00

JyRul3z: Ah~Du GeNNNNNN
Jiahao :Shou~Du GeNNNN

2005-01-07T01:11:00.000-08:00

killing a drake...the 'Hum Ji' way

2005-01-07T01:09:00.000-08:00

proudly displaying my big name

2005-01-07T01:07:00.000-08:00

my store in perion

2005-01-07T01:05:00.000-08:00

JyRul3z...signing off! until the next time you see me in maple

P/S: The pictures are very very small here...click on it to view the full size...dame cute~~~wont regret it

2005-01-04T18:00:00.000-08:00

Maple Addiction symptoms(ripped off from a website)

you go to a Burger King and since all the lines are full you decide to change channels
you see someone getting beaten up, and wonder if you should help them cause they might complain that you're ksing
when you try to sell the lid of one of your pans
when u enter a pharmacy asking for more potions
when you call your mom, "MushMom"
The new kid in school wants to be your friend, but you tell him your buddy list is full.
When you tear strips of leather out of all cars you see and try to sell them for 100 dollars in stores
when you start using mops to wack ur friends
when you ask someones level, when you really meant their age
When you accidentally drop something, and try to find the 'z' button
You're in church and the pastor says "please be seated," so you try to find the 'x' botton
When you give a cobbler some leather, some screws, a crystal and ask him to make lvl 20 shoes.. He says he can't and you ask him if he would like to buy your leather, selling cheap.. 200 mesos only
When you carry a yellow/blue umbrella around even though it's not raining, open it and start jumping around thinking its cool
When maple goes down for patching and you finally decided to blog

none of the above...but still addicted to maple anyway

PS: only maplers would understand the symptoms

2004-12-19T01:40:00.000-08:00

i know im like lagging 10yrs but well...still gonna post the pictures anyway

Prom Pics!

a very not me looking picture of me before prom

2004-12-19T01:39:00.000-08:00

3 very pretty girls and a very ugly guy!

2004-12-19T01:38:00.000-08:00

hao xing fu aoo!

2004-12-19T01:37:00.000-08:00

looks like some high profile red event red carpet walk

2004-12-19T01:36:00.000-08:00

sexy ladies

2004-12-19T01:35:00.001-08:00

**notice sexy hinky running around in my suit!**

2004-12-19T01:34:00.001-08:00

03S19 girls

2004-12-19T01:34:00.000-08:00

class guys!!

2004-12-19T01:33:00.000-08:00

an almost complete 03S19 class pic! trust me...this pic is gonna be in my wallet for quite some time!

2004-12-19T01:32:00.000-08:00

and who can forget the sad incident of clara being raped...there is an consequence of dressing up too 'sexyly'

2004-12-19T01:31:00.000-08:00

Class Chalet!!!!!

the workers...the slackers and the eaters

2004-12-19T01:30:00.000-08:00

an attempt to take a photo of ourselves

2004-12-19T01:29:00.000-08:00

the picture looks better with me cut out is it...huh Huh HUH!

2004-12-19T01:28:00.001-08:00

floating heads

2004-12-19T01:28:00.000-08:00

si act cute...not me...huiling!

2004-12-19T01:27:00.000-08:00

im lost for words

2004-12-19T01:26:00.000-08:00

a failed attempt to act cute

2004-12-19T01:25:00.000-08:00

me and my new best friend!

2004-12-19T01:22:00.000-08:00

the SKNs....si kin nas

2004-12-19T01:21:00.000-08:00

breakfast and pinky hinky

2004-12-05T02:05:00.000-08:00

Prom's over...chalet next!!!!!!!!!!!

After 3 full days of preparation...its the big night...a night of glitz and glamour...

Considered that i spend $300 for that freaking prom night...heart kinda aching...even till now ok...esp when it is $300 on just ONE night...but its one unforgetable night...everyone look simply gorgeous...belle look sexy...huiling had amazing hair...sophia had a brilliant smile...linda and peiyu look super cute...yinjie wore a skirt (and thats a big deal ok)...merry look very elegant...winnie look raunchy...clara look like a hollywood model...alvin look dame cool (always trust merry's taste)...jon look like he played with his father's cloths but still fantastic...vincent grew 10cm within 5 days...and i look like a french power lesbian...and my face is always rotten during such important events...and it never fail to clear out the night after...my dame face!! arghhh...but still had fun

2004-11-28T13:30:00.000-08:00

Mom is out...Sis is out...just me and my bur!

As over...finally over...the torment...the angish...the sleepless nigths...the period where bur has to stay at home cause i got no time to bring him out...now thats its over...i can finally spend time with myself...finally can stone...finally can rot...and finally can watch all the movies i always wanted to watch!!!!!!!!!!

Dun reall wanna talk about the As...haiz...kinda flop...all in all...there goes my hope for ONLY As and Bs...i'll probably end up with Cs and Ds...Maths C kinda ambiguous...Fmaths= flop...screwed physics 2...chem...ya...i can do well for chem...bur can speak english...haha...kinda afraid that i'll disappoint my parents...well...though my family isnt the perfect family where parents care for their children...they still fullfill their duty as parents...not the most perfect parents but definitely better than some...and what more can i ask for...they didnt torture me (kinda ironic cause im so skinny)...they give me money...pay for my bills (arghhhhhhh hit 140 this month...mom is gonna kill me) and me...flop my As...and they must buy me a new desktop to make me feel even more guilty...which fyi...i love it!!!! but still gonna upgrade some stuff...haiz...just hope the results can come out good...at least they can be proud of me over 1 thing though its highly unlikely i'll score well...forget it!~

kinda enjoy spending time alone...anyway for doing stuff...just spending time alone...by myself...to all the dudes i blew off...sorry guys...really dun wanna go out...but i did go shop for my prom stuff which btw is the most irritating thing i've done...arghhhhh...wonder how the girls do it...walk for 30mins tired le...haha...and girls can walk for the whole day and come home with bags and bags of stuff...i walked the whole day and came home only with a new bone for bur...arghhh...its sunday le...prom on wed...worst come to worst...end up wearing the swimming trunk as planned...or a picachu tshirt...dont worry belle...your date is gonna look very hot in these :p

2004-11-14T18:00:00.000-08:00

Where relatives invades!.!.!.

Shocking news of the day...i'm already a uncle!!!! with a nephew that is at least 2years old!!! Bet you didnt know that...you know what...i don't too...until yesterday!! First impression...his very cute...i mean he does have alittle of my genes...look quite cute...look harmless...very active...how bad can it get right...WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! all hell broke loose!!!!!!

Man that kid is something...he came in and ran towards bur...being that obidient good dog that he is...he just sat there proudly recieving all the cute comments about him...then the kid stromed through the hall pushes his parents aside...went next to my baby dog and HE PINCH BUR!!!!!!!!!!!! how can that kid do that...even i myself dun hit my own dog and that brat just came over and pinch my baby!!! Bur obviously traumatized didnt retaliate...he just simply move back...and man it is not over...he chased bur all over the hall screaming and shouting...bur simply ran for his life away from the evil monster...Bur ran towards me with eyes tell me to help him and i tuck bur safely under the sofa where the detrimental hands cant reach...and what do you know...that brat get to get my room for the night while im chased out of my own room and have to sleep on the sofa!!!! arghhhhh whats this...first he bully my precious and next he gets to use my room!!

Slept late as usual...wanted to sms huiling but decided not to as i already have enough people screaming in my ears...haha...was sleeping peacefully...all until the mad kid started wailing across the hall running around...arghhhhh cant a boy who is under exam stress and slept late have a good rest!! he ran around the hall...he poked me...and he scribbled on my SAJC FM paper!!!!!!! argh!!!!! and once again bur is spotted running for his life...had no choice as i have to wake up...imagine sleeping in a childcare center with every kid chasing each other...and mind you there is one 1 of him!!!! didnt manage to study the whole afternoon and bur had been in hiding just incase he gets injured...awwww...poor dog...and finally he is asleep *sigh a breath of relief* but superboy only needed an hour of sleep...so its only an hour of peace before he starts going around...throwing my stuff all over the floor and scribbling my notes and spraying sun block lotion at himself!!! haha...he deserve it...guess what his parents are doing...playing xbox...arghh....somebody save me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they are gonna stay until tuesday...haiz...thanks for inviting people to cheer me on as i study mom...appreciate it

2004-11-10T23:48:00.000-08:00

The exams so far....Part II

Chem P3

The paper that bothered me the most...considering that even passing chem is a big challenge for me...glad that was over and done with...paper was too easy...its not cause i know my stuff or what...but its unanimously argreed by the whole cohort...the paper is really too easy...and thats a bad thing...that would mean that those really good might not be rewarded with their well-deserved A as a careless mistake is gonna kill...and those who might not be as good at the subject but made a point to be more careful are gonna get the As...not the fairest exam i can say...but not that i can get an A...best case sceneario...i end up with a B...and trust me...its good enough for me!

Targeted Grade: B

Maths 9233 P1

Pretty easy paper i must say...nothing really difficult...just need to take another look at the question and it's doable...completed the 1st page in 30mins and slacked after that...haha...made 1 or 2 careless mistakes...probably more...just that i'm not aware of...haiz...there goes the full mark hope...hopfully can still scrape off with a 80++% and hope its good enough for an A...maths is the only subject i can get an A...if i don't...it'll be leaping off 20th story here i come

Targeted grade: A

2004-11-06T19:00:00.000-08:00

Top 10 Things to do after 'Air' Level

10. Redo my tank (Its a total disaster now)

9. Get my hair dyed (Though its only for a month)

8. Learn the piano (Belle you're gonna make me play Canon in D & toccata)

7. Read Pride & Prejudice and Da Vinci's code (Im so literal..and no i wont throw it aside after a week)

6. Watch The Champion, Charmed & Smallville (Flona Xie, the Charmed girls and that Smallville girl is simply irresistable)

5. Play Maple (Thanks so spence)

4. Get that killer body and tan (Me & my sex god dream...and yup i got Rodney's poster pin up on my wall...my idol)

3. Get Britney's number (Now that you've lost some weight...i want you back)

2. Merry Elanor (My Baby!!)

and finally

1. Walk Bur 1000 times (That dame dog is getting fat...at this rate..he'll look like Olinda in no time who is by the way is getting out of Idol soon...times up poon pee pee)

2004-11-04T23:10:00.000-08:00

The day finally came

This is it...two years of GP classes...two years of reading logs...two years of struggle al it all comes down to this...an essay...a comprehension and a whole lot of cold sweat...

With much disappointment, education was not set...so isn't war and i'm not confident with advertising...dame...should have read up on religion and not think that it'll not come out...religion is so me la...i can probably write non stop...but need alot of other facts to suppose my stand which i did not really read up on...did the beauty question...not like i studied on beauty and stuff but at least its more common sense...the economics question is too econs and the history question is too history...the top scorers would probably be those econs and history students...so gave that a miss...advertising is easy...but still went on with the beauty question...haha...haiz...nothing i put slight effort to study came out...didnt plan my essay well and was crying half way through as i realised i picked the wrong question...but strong points came in to savour the paper as i try my best to squeeze out some points...didnt pay much attention to grammer as wasn't concentrating on writing but thinking of points...haiz...just hope im coherent...

P2 was easy only to certain extent...the first 5 questions are not much kick...but questions set on the 2nd passage was not very easy...did AQ before summary and i'll probably screw the summary part up...alot to write for AQ but not much time...i have to chiong out two paragraphs in five mintues just to complete the AQ...haiz...its all over...no...GP is all over...not sure how i'll do...the fact that it's an easy paper makes it hard to get an A...but a difficult paper would means that I'll fail...what irony...God be with me!

Targeted Grade: B3

2004-11-02T23:48:00.000-08:00

I'm in depression and i'm admitting it...

i dun wanna study anymore

2004-10-30T16:32:00.000-07:00

Life sucks...Studies sucks...Hinky sucks

2004-10-29T09:48:00.000-07:00

Chem pract was a total screw...not like i am super pro in chem and can salvage those points lost in the Pract...Intuitively felt that double end point is going to come out for VA and scrambled to look for the notes on it...but apparently tp didnt touch on double end point...ARGHHHHHHHHH...and what do you know...it really came out...Kinetics was out as expected but i quite screw that up since i get a value of 0.8++ when its suppose to be 1...dame that line of best fit...the worst part is the QA part...haiz...Test for Co2 upon adding acid to that dame FA5 but noticed some purple gas produced...didnt really test for gas when heating as i think there is no need to...but saw jonathon test with blue litmus and got a positive test...thus decided to change my reading as I DUN HAVE ENOUGH SPACE TO ADD MORE OBSERVATIONS!~!!~!~!~!~!~didnt thought that i can find the unknown anion with the first test also...argh...Co2 isnt acidic but why is the gas produced acidic (thats cause you added acid you himbo)...arghhhh why did that voice within only came after the whole pract!!! argh...

QA part two is worst..must be the greedy nature of me to add like a thousand drops of KmnO4 and KCrO7 where only one two drops is sufficient...got negative test for all those reduction tests where its suppose to be positive test...and i cant remember that BACl and acid is a differential test between So42- and So32-...ARGHHHHH...worst is that the dicromate test for So2 is negative...ARGHHH...im cursed...whenever doing chem pract...im always stuck with obscure So2!!! Not to forget i almost died during the pract...by that evil mad scientise a.k.a ISABELLE!!! she either plan to kill me with the explosion she made or choke me to death with the So2 gas...

2004-10-27T01:15:00.000-07:00

The difference between a RJ smart shit and a TP dumb ass

Win: Cr3+, Fe3+ & Al3+ produces Co2 in Na2Co3...you know why?

Me: Erm...cause they are acidic.?.?

Win: Why...

Me: Erm...cause they are metals?.?.?

Win: No...cause of their high chage density...they are able to draw H2O ligands closer to them and thus causing the O-H bond to cleave and thus...forming H30+ which is acidic

Me: Oh really...

Win: Yes...ok...lets try again...What happens when you add KI to lets say CuSO4?

Me: You get a.....erm...a reaction (cheeky smile)

Win: Observations?

Me: Hmm...blue ppt??

Win: No!!!!!!!!! you get cream ppt in brown solution...CUI is your ppt which is insoluble while your brown solution is your I2 (aq)

Me: I learn something new everyday...

Win: This aint new...its important...u better mug that...ok...what about reaction of halids with acidifiec H2S04...

Me:I remember that...that will cleave the double bond and oxidise the reactant (smile proudly) see...i know my stuff....

Win: Arghhhhh...thats organic...not QA...Cl2 will be evolved if Cl- ions present...shake with hexane and you either get a orange-brown or violet organic layer with Br- and I- respectively!!!

Me: (Looks down) oh....

Other differences?

RJ students don't even need the QA notes...everything is inside..while TP students would scramble and cant do QA without it

RJ students would know the chimcological reasons why ppt are soluble and insoluble while TP students just know that they are insoluble...

Conclusion...TP sucks (Not like i can make it to RJ anyway)

2004-10-26T22:00:00.000-07:00

Schedule for Now to 27th October

1. Mug FM till 12 later and complete vjc prelim paper...

2. Wake up at 6 and do NJ FM prelim paper

3. Proceed to college for consultation with bitchy Tay

4. Proceed to study Chem with SAT ll chem full marks slut

5. Last min revision on chem pract

Its perfect...provided i move according to plan...

2004-10-25T23:33:00.000-07:00

Dammit...after that dame spence install that dame XP professional OS...my com has been laggy and unstable and can never log on to blogger...argh...spence u owe me a new com!!!!

Went out to chill out abit...to get myself more calm to talk about the disasterous physics pract this morning...

Woke up and just felt wired...felt wrong...its like deep down...you know something is going to go wrong...a phone call from faith in the morning did nerve me up abit considering that her reporting time is alleged to be at 9.30 while mine at 9.45 for the same shift...

First step into the lab and a cheeky smile was spotted across my face...bingo...potential meter did come out...but that excitment didnt last long...did the osciallation experiment first and i unknowingly rushed through without really reading the question...its probably due to the abrupt start of the paper that caught me by surprise...apparently the invigilator is so caught to get home that he started the exam right after the 'standard' speech...dame i was hoping for a few minutes to catch my breathe...the big problem came when drawing the graph..not all the points landed on the line and my usual problem of not being able to process preceding numbers with more than 5 digits acted up again...my scale reads...1.1000...1.1500...1.3000...argh...keep erasing and rewritting my scale over and over again...and saw isabelle playing with the jokey thingie and the bulb and shaking leg while im struggling...wanted to do another osciallation to get more points for a more accurate graph BUT THAT DAME INVIGILATOR TURNED ON THE FAN...dammit...cant he just tolerate a few minutes of stuffiness for the sake of my future!!!!! agrh...so feel like shouting :Off the fan u faggot!!!

time was up for the first experiment and i practically throw my stuff over to the other bench and pia through the second experiment though the invigilator said stop writing...im not put on the last bench for nothing...haha...didnt even bother disassembling my experiment and isabelle disassembled it herself...and i was hoping for an already setted up circuit with answers written on the table but apparently isabelle thought im too evil and decided not to help me...haha...couldnt think straight at that point...all that was on my mind was to complete the dame experiment and continue with the previous...all the steps and procedures that i was rehersing didnt really pay off...haiz...still managed to complete the whole paper in the end...though the paper was rather wet from my cold sweat...but thank God i did the osciallation experiment first...i'll probably lost some marks but what are they compared to p3...argh...gonna gain them back man...im powering through!!!

2004-10-25T13:47:00.000-07:00

Screwed up my physics pract...haiz...why didi i screw up during SUCH AN IMPORTANT EXAM...2years and it all went down to this...a screwed pract...of all papers...why this...why did i panick...haiz...and to think that isabelle can still play with magnets and and the light bulb when i'm like trying my best to draw my graph...thank God i did the osciallation experiment first...Gary chan was right...the experiment you do first does affect the overall results...should be thankful that i still can complete though the thousands of mistakes i made (can even name a few now, imagine those unknowingly made due to panicking) haiz...a very bad first paper...4 papers to make up for it...must do it...Physics and maths are probably the only hope for As...fm still uncertain and i can just screw chemistry...yucks...horrible subject...

better go back to study...

P/S: for those who screwed up today's pract...please dun give up...all is not lost!

2004-10-23T21:14:00.000-07:00

Someday, Someday

So we've already established the fact that

things are gonna be different in the future baby.

And you've reiterated the fact that you don't

want to get into something that's just gonna have to end later.

Now I know our lives are changing and I've seen it

coming for a while too, don't get me wrong.

And I've been going outta town baby it's gonna happen more,

we gotta be strong but now

While I'm gone

Just be a fly on the wall

You knowI'm thinking about you

Just wait and see

You gotta hear what I say

I'm in love with you

I'm not so far away

Someday, someday I will be here babe

Someday, someday I will be the one babe

Someday, somedayI will be here babe

Someday, someday I will be the one babe

I know you gotta go to university and

I'm just trying to make some cash to follow my dreams.

But please don't say we're too busy to give each other the time and support we need

I know we gotta work our jobs and make some money to get by in this expensive world.

Don't let that overtake the fact that before all that, you were still my girl.

While I'm gone

Just be a fly on the wall

You knowI'm talking about you

Just wait and see

You gotta hear what I say

I'm in love with you

I'm not so far away

Someday, someday I will be here babe

Someday, somedayI will be the one babe

Someday, someday I will be here babe

Someday, someday I will be the one babe

Someday, someday I'll know that you love me

Someday, someday Sorry that I'm leaving

Someday, someday I will be here babe

Someday, someday I will be the one babe

I'm in love with you

I'm not so far away

Someday, someday I will be here babe

Someday, someday I will be the one babe

Someday, someday I will be here babe

Someday, someday I will be the one babe

Someday, someday I'll know that you love me

Someday, someday I just need you here with me

Don't have to try Love will take us there babe

Someday, someday I will be the one babe

Someday, someday Look towards the sky babe

Someday, Someday There's no need to cry babe

I know that you're always what I want babe

I will be the one babe

Someday, I will be the one babe

Someday, I just need you here with me

2004-10-22T10:59:00.000-07:00

No more breast bouncing maia...saded...life have no more meaning anymore...just let me die...

2004-10-18T23:00:00.000-07:00

Had a morning cal and woke up at 7...dragged myself up from the late night i had...was about to leave the house when a sms from belle came.....MOCK TEST AT 12 NOT 8!!!!!!!!! so i woke up at 7 for absolutly nothing...went to mac to meet belle and sopia for breakfast cause im alleged obligated to accompany them...but that was fine

Didnt study much and went for the mock test...and it was dreadful...totally brain dead...the questions are not say very very difficult...but im just not able to get my mind to think right...and the extra constant terms added in almost every question didnt help other than making the darn equation long complicated and tedious...gave up like after 2hours of agony and left...just like that...never in my life had i given up a maths paper...but whats the point of comparing...im in a Jc...doing fm,,,can i just stop having the mentality that i am darn pro at maths...as a matter of fact...maths sucks...i never thought i'll say this but...maths really really sucks...just my pure insanity to prostitute myself to slave for maths...its half of the subjects im taking la...16days left to the A level and i cant even secure Bs at prelim papers...whats this...by this time i should be able to tackle every topic...get As and Bs at prelim papers...not struggling for passes...considering i was like spending 2hours doing stuff to my blog (where spence only took 10mins to dot he same thing) how well can i score...sososososososososo wrong

Got home and saw mom...quite taken back since she is not suppose to be at home during such hours...and she asked how was my paper thinking my As have started (yea some mom...dun even know when his precious son A level paper starts...bet she dun even know when i was born...but at least she knows im doing my As...im so proud of er)...she asked me this question...'are you sure you can make it?'...thay sentence bothered me like the whole day la...all my life i've been looked down uponed...the dumber between me and my sis...the one who got into a neightbourhood school which i probably at the bottom 50...the one who probabl have absolutly no value other than wasting the family wealth on high end goods...ok...fine...so im not as good as my cousin who is in HC and was in chs...im not like him who is so thrifty and can save up thousands of dollars...i can only spend thousands and save up none...spend hundreds on tuition and still fail exams...like him so much...get him as your son la...stop bitching about me...fine...you got my life predicted and i'm gonna like live that poor pauper live while my sis is gonna live that Singapore dream...so you're gonna take that as what is really gonna happen...condemn me and disapprove whatever i do...have that mentality that everything i do will fail...fine im only in TPJC not some NJC where you expected me to...

Went out hoping that the night can be better...but all the emotions are just too overwealming...not to forget that that buses seem to keep pouring when i dun need them...and all none in sight when i wanna take them...waited like 20-30mins at the bus stop before finally boarding one...partly also due to my fickle mindedness...but the poking penguin thing below the tag board did made me feel better

2004-10-16T22:59:00.000-07:00

had nothing better to do after shower...something struck me...i've taken so many pictures OF bur but have never taken 1 WITH him...haha

2004-10-15T09:17:00.000-07:00

Had farewell assembly today...and i made my grand appearence after being missing for more than a week...haha...would never miss today's programme for anything else...no matter how i hated tp and wished i was in somewhere better...i did spent 2 years in tp and memories can seriosuly be overwealming...the things i'll always remember in 03S19

1)Saw my classmates for the first time during J1 and acted dao
2)Eating nothing but chicken rice during lunch
3)Skipping lessons to play bridge
4)Taking porn video during chem pract
5)Giving attitude whenever i'm nt in a good mood
6)Dragon boating with the class guys only to end up last
7)Clinching a 3rd at the mixed doubles canoe with winnie last year
8)Dying the make it for the mixed doubles finals with merry this year after winnie pang sei me
9)Forcing myself to remain awake to wish winnie happy bday only to get the date wrong
10)JYFC and AJYC

haha...there are just so much memories in the class...i may bitch about how i hated tp and how i think tp had ruined my life...but all in all...tp is really really great esp s19...had the best day in college today...though its very draggy...haha...umbrellla cross dressed again and he wore this super short tp mini skirt which he prouded paraded around the college in...yucks...if that is not enough...simon reynolds did a britney in the most hilarious performance i've ever seen...went around taking pictures...the last time i'm gonna take picture in tpjc...haha..conclusion....
1)bad hair
2)terrible complexion
3)i still donno how to smile
add them all up and you get disasterous pictures of myself...and my friend say i look spas!!! which is actually quite true...nvm...i still have prom to prove my worth...haha...gonna built up with shawn after the As...we've devised a schedule so that we're gonna look like sex gods by Jan...gonna go for that impossible tan(as the whole world know i'll look as red as a lobster instead)...gonna put on weight through macdonals and kfc and long john when studying...then tone up for the next 5 days after the As(and applying L'oreal tonner won't work...so dun put that lame joke on me)

2004-10-15T09:08:00.000-07:00

Merry looks cute...Alvin..............looks cute too..haha

2004-10-15T09:04:00.000-07:00

merry...caught in te middle

2004-10-15T07:44:00.000-07:00

Britney in her best form...Rock on Reynolds

2004-10-15T07:42:00.000-07:00

a happy momet...leaving TPJC...haha

2004-10-15T07:39:00.000-07:00

The picture says it all...TPJC

2004-10-15T07:31:00.000-07:00

Making the video of Britney's new single My Prerogative

2004-10-15T07:24:00.000-07:00

me and a whole bunch of girls...i must be the 'luckiest' guy around

2004-10-15T07:23:00.000-07:00

acting cool in the audi

2004-10-15T07:22:00.000-07:00

how can i not get a piece from the sex God...Rodney is handsome

2004-10-15T07:21:00.000-07:00

acting cute is seriously out of my league

2004-10-15T07:20:00.000-07:00

The guys in 03S19...very cute *identify the same kind of shoes on me and kiat how*

>*MeMoRies GoOd Or BaD....ArE sTiLl MeMoRiEs*<

>MeMoRies GoOd Or BaD....ArE sTiLl MeMoRiEs<