Submitted some internship application today. Not sure how i should feel now too. Have been disappointed too many times to keep my hopes high. While i really hope that i can secure a good internship with a top bank, i cant help but wonder, what are my chances? there are so many better qualified students around. Students graduating from ivy league colleges around the world, students who obtained scholarships and excellent academic record. And after that, low self-esteem strut. the cruel reality of life that i am only a freaking small fish in this global pond.

But hey, I'm Jared! I wont let the reality of life hold me down. My determination will power me through. just have to put in more hours of effort and less on dota!